Your Past Doesn’t Dictate What Your Future Will Be

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Jillian Bullock Screenwriter, Director, Producer
Jillian Bullock is an award winning screenwriter and director, but she is also a certified professional life coach and transformational speaker. She started this second career after her memoir, HERE I STAND, was published and people from all walks of life started contacting her for advice, from corporate executives to people in correctional facilities.
She would always get the same two questions – “How did you turn your life around?” “Can you help me do the same?”
If you don’t know, here’s a quick rundown of Jillian’s life when she was growing up.
  • Raised by her African-American mother and white stepfather, who was in the Philadelphia Italian Mafia.
  • Saw her first Mob hit when she was nine years old.
  • Was raped by a family friend at age eleven.
  • Was homeless and a high school dropout by age fifteen.
  • Got involved in drugs and prostitution to survive the streets.
  • Got pregnant and delivered a baby at sixteen years old.
  • Kicked drugs and went back to high school at eighteen.
  • Graduated from Overbrook High when she was twenty.
  • Began college – Community College of Philadelphia. Then, LaSalle University.
  • Got an internship at the Wall Street Journal newspaper while she attended college.
There is much more to Jillian’s story, and you would have to read HERE I STAND to learn more, but the thought is despite her horrific upbringing she held on to what she calls her “fighting spirit.” To pull oneself up out of the gutter, literally in Jillian’s case, and to do a complete transformation of mind, body and spirit, it takes a fighting spirit and much faith.

Hitting Rock Bottom


When Jillian was at her lowest point in life, she attempted suicide. After she finished with a “john” in a seedy motel and she snorted a few lines of cocaine, Jillian couldn’t take the life she was living. Her dream was to become a filmmaker and she didn’t see that ever happening. When she found out she was pregnant, she knew there was no way she would be able to take care of herself and a baby. One night she decided to end it all by swallowing a bottle of pills.
Jillian remembers that God came to her and said – “This isn’t your time. You have so much more to do. Your life will change millions of lives one day.”
After the doctors pumped Jillian’s stomach and she found out the baby was still alive that was the defining moment for her. She knew she had to find a way to get off the streets, kick drugs and go back to school in order to provide a better life for her baby.

Even when Jillian got clean and went back to high school she often felt she was crazy to continue to dream of a career as a screenwriter and filmmaker. With no support, with no help, and living on welfare, Jillian had constant thoughts of negativity that she was nothing more than a crack addicted whore. As a result, she  slid into a depressed state. Going back to drugs often crossed her mind and it was a constant struggle to remain drug free. But then she would look over at her baby boy and she remembered what God told her.  She also remembered her promise to God. Her son, Clinton, was born two months premature due to Jillian’s drug use. The doctors didn’t think he would survive. Jillian spoke to God and said, “If you let him live, I promise I will stay off drugs and try to be a good mother.” Not only did Clinton survive, but he thrived. A bright boy, he was reading at the age of three.

Even though Jillian stayed drug free, she still suffered from depression. Her past haunted her nightly where she would wake up in cold sweats. However, Jillian dug down deep, held on to her fighting spirit, read self-help books, went to counseling, and prayed a lot.  These productive methods helped Jillian  clear her mind and push forward.

Your Past Doesn’t Dictate What Your Future Will Be

Today, Jillian uses her skills, education, talent, and advice to help others transform their lives and fulfill their dreams and goals. No matter what path one has taken up to the point they are right now, Jillian always says – “For most people it’s not impossible. As long as you have breath in your body, you can fulfill your dreams and goals. But you must take 100% responsibility for your life, for your choices, for your decisions.”

It’s Gonna Be Hell

To fulfill your dreams and goals, you should know it’s going to be hell, or as Jillian says –“You will have to give in to the blood, sweat and tears it’s going to take you to be successful.” To become a filmmaker, Jillian had to sacrifice a tremendous amount in order to succeed. She had to put the negative thoughts of her past out of her head. She had to rid herself of the naysayers, the doubters, the haters. She had to hold fast to her belief that she could achieve her goals and that no one was going to stop her.

I call Jillian, “the black  Anthony “Tony” Robbins. Whatever she says you need to listen. She tells you straight like it is, but it’s always the truth,” John Quinlan, lead male actor in the movie A Sense of Purpose: Fighting For Our Lives. 

                                                      (Model/Actor John Quinlan)

“I joke with Jillian all the time and say she found me on the side of the road, like a lost, stray cat. But the truth is my personal and professional life was in the toilet when I first started working on Jillian’s movie two years ago. I doubted myself and thought of quitting this business many times. If it wasn’t for her guidance and advice, her mentoring me, her believing in me, her putting her foot up my ass when needed, and her love and support of me, I would have quit, given up on my dream, for sure. I would have continued to be miserable and lost.  That’s not the case anymore. I owe Jillian everything.”

Some of Jillian’s Key Points For Transforming Your Life and Fulling Your Dreams and Goals

  • When life hits you hard, you have a choice, either lie down and quit or stand up and fight.
  • Transformation of one’s life means to stop making excuses for why you are living the way you are.
  • Take the power back to your life.
  • Fear is motivation to get your ass moving.
  • Stop the blame game. No more putting the blame on others – parents, spouse, children, employer, best friends, God, the government. This is your life and you are 100% responsible for the outcome.
  • Obstacles, challenges and hardships are a way of life. It’s how you deal with those things that will determine how your life will be.
  • Even after you take that leap of faith and go for it, you will fail. So what. Failure is part of the journey toward fulfilling your goals. Embrace failure and learn from it.
  • Surround yourself with positive, uplifting, smart, and productive people who will push you toward excellence and greatness.
  • Eliminate the naysayers, haters,  doubters, and anyone will pulls you down. into their world of misery. And that means anyone – family, spouse, employer, friends, co-workers.
  • Eliminate the cancer from your mind. Your thoughts either help you achieve greatness or sink you into a mindset of misery and despair.
  • You must be 100% committed to making the sacrifices required to fulfill your dreams and goals?
  • Baby steps toward greatness and success. It won’t happen overnight.
  • It’s not just about achieving money, fame or fortune. You want to be happy, too. Work at creating a life of peace and quietness for your mind and spirit.
  • You don’t want to lie on your death bed and have regrets of what could have been.
Currently, Jillian is on a speaking tour throughout the country to promote her upcoming movie, A Sense of Purpose: Fighting For Our Lives, which deals with veterans, PTSD and military sexual assault.
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Jillian speaks on these topics and many more, including domestic violence, fitness and health, self-defense, mental health, and life transformation personally and professionally. If you are interested in booking Jillian to speak at your business, corporation, non-profit, event, agency, college,  veterans’ group, or workshop, contact Monique Arrington, Business Manager at for Jillian’s availability and speaking fees.

To learn more about Jillian –
To purchase, HERE I STAND

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